It is quiet.
Life has been a little less quiet. Some tumultuous seasons have shown themselves but we’re making it. I feel hollow. I must watch my steps and my words. I must appreciate more and be warmer to the ones I love.
This year I took a position in the bank that offers me higher compensation and less stress. It offers me a work family. I’ve been there for almost a quarter and it feels like the right place. Work life is good for the first time in the longest time.
My best friend and I are in maybe the best place we’ve ever been. She’s planning a wedding now, I still have to buy my dress for it. January can’t come soon enough – I can’t wait to see her life change in that beautiful dress hanging in the left side of her closet. She does my heart so good, just knowing that if I need her, I have her. This year has been wonderful for us in learning and love.
My grandfather has had it rough the last couple of months and I am constantly thinking about him. We got some good news last week though, and I am optimistic. This time last year we lost Jordan’s grandfather. I can’t believe it’s already been a year. Our family is doing well, and we haven’t lost anyone else. I hope we can squeeze a few more years out of everyone – I need them to be around to see us succeed.
Look where we are now – we’ve worked ourselves into home ownership, into our complete independence, into complete control of our lives and future. Yet, now it is nature slowing us down instead of time and money. There is nothing we can do about that.
This morning we woke up around nine. We made cheese and bacon biscuits and opened all the windows and let the cats out on the porch. We put on the signed Right Away Great Captain album Jordan found for me within the last year. We made some tea together, he embraced me, said he’d work a couple of hours and we could plan to go to the zoo today. I would like that. He told me he loved me and cleaned up the kitchen. Things are good now.